These feelings don't go away...

These feelings don’t go away

Through all the work, it makes me go stray

Fleeting moments in time, I can’t hold them at bay

I need you - with me I want you to stay

These feelings don’t go away

They invade my mind all through the day

Here I go again, in a daze I lay

Even in a meeting, attention I could not pay 

These feelings don’t go away

Try as hard as I may

To be with you is all I pray

To have you here, anything I’ll pay !

These feelings don’t go away...

Inspired by the song ‘Sideways’ by which I listened to over and over again yesterday, thinking of you...

September 11th, 2012, 

Riyadh, Saudi Arabia

When I said I missed you, I lied !

Snuggled in a duvet, I sit at the edge of my bedside

Through dimly lit lamps, I see outside

Outside, through the heat and the tarmac roads, serenity abide

When I said I missed you, I lied

I don’t miss you - I hopelessly long for you

Through all my work and pressures, I pine for you

To hear your voice, to see your face, my soul dies for you

To have one touch, one hug, one kiss, my heart aches for you

Just one more day - oh let it go fast

And then I will be with you again - at long last

Till then, be still my beating heart

See you soon my angel, from my thoughts you never did part !

11th September

Riyadh, Saudi Arabia...

Ammi...

You told me not to - but yet i did

You told me I was foolish - I was

You told me it will happen - and so it did

You told me it will hurt - yes, now I know 

You told me it was not worth it - it was

You told me it is not the answer - maybe

You told me it will not bring happiness - it hasn’t

You told me it will make me different - it didn’t

You told me to take it easy - I didn’t

You told me to be easy - I was defiant

You told me to be ok - I wasn’t

You told me it was enough - it wasn’t

You wanted me to speak out - I did

You wanted me to be principled - I am

You demanded my best - I gave more

You wanted my soul intact - it is

You wanted me to be my own man - I will always be

You wanted me to spend time with my family - I will

You wanted me to be good - I generally am

You wanted me to be like you - I probably never will

You wanted me to seek my own truths - I always have

You wanted me to beat my own path - Surely, I have

You wanted me to give - I gave

You told me to be wise - I don’t know how

You wanted me to read - I devoured 

You wanted me to explore - I discovered

You wanted me to love - I found passion

You wanted me to live - I will leave a legacy

September 11th 2012

Riyadh, Saudi Arabia

Lessons my parents taught me...

In victory, humility

In defeat, resolve

In happiness, thanks

In sorrow, perspective

In pain, strength

In pleasure, grace

At the bottom, hope

At the top, vision

In despair, inspiration

In jubilation, retrospection

In wealth, thrift

In poverty, determination

In loneliness, memories

With family and friends, time

In hunger, perseverance

In abundance, share

In folly, lessons

In wisdom, principles

In friendship, honesty

In enmity, honor

In diversity, understanding

In complexity, simplicity

In doubt, faith

In hopelessness, confidence

In youth, accomplishment

In old age, no regrets

In life, love

In death, a legacy

September 11th 2012 - Riyadh, Saudi Arabia

Me...

Try me, and you will find out

Test me, and you will fail

Challenge me, and you will be defeated

Defeat me, and you will be challenged

Lie to me, and I will never trust

Steal from me, and I will never give

Betray me, and I will walk away

Dishonor me, and you will be avenged

Respect me, and you will be respected

Cuss me, and I will always remember

Give me, and you will be repaid

Owe me, I will forget

Trust me, and you will have a friend (for life)

Be gentle with me, and you will receive kindness

Forgive me, and you will be loved 

Love me, and you will be cherished

September 11th 2012

Riyadh, Saudi Arabia