Out of Office...

It is that time of the year
With 'mates' to raise a cheer
An old yarn, and a couple of pints of beer
Revisiting childhood and recollecting memories dear

Intoxicated I may well be in the next couple of days
Mails may probably be the furthest from the mind, no matter what anyone says
Forgive my frivolity, and a little excess if you may
For I was a Thomian well before what I am today

So... forgive me for not responding
And allow a man growing old to be left alone to his 'male bonding'
If it cannot wait, and you MUST get in touch in a hurry
You can touch base with Fayaz - so, don't be in a flurry 
(fayaz@highfiveconsultancy.com) 

Thank you for understanding this little quirk
It is a 'responsibility' I try not to shirk
Begging your forgiveness, I will bid you good day
For sure, I will reply on Sunday - till then, patiently stay

Esto Perpetua

Vidusha
2013 - my auto reply for the Big Match !

Remind me, when my life is done !

Remind me, when my life is done

What I have done, and what I had not

Remind me, when my life is done
That I did not live in vain, that mydeeds with me will not rot Or
That what I showed you, you never forgot

Remind me, when my life is done
That I loved you both dearly
Remind me, when my life is done
That I showed you, clearly

Remind me, when my life is done
That you can do it on your own
Remind me, when my life is done
That values I taught you will never disown

Remind me, when my life is done
To achieve, I did not sway
Remind me, when my life is done
That from righteousness you will never stray

Remind me, when my life is done
That I made it all worthwhile
Remind me, when my life is done
That I taught you how to smile

Remind me, when my life is done
That through you, my legacy lives on
Remind me, when my life is done
That you are my daughter, and my son !

The Slipper Came Down Hard

The slipper came down hard
You winced, and cried
The slipper came down hard
Inside me, I died

You looked at me
Tears in your eyes
It was hard for me to see
Each time I remember, a part of me dies

You sobbed, you wailed, you held on
I reprimanded you harshly, I stood my ground
You cried even more, and sat there, looking on
My stomach churned, my heart pined, in my soul, an open wound

The slipper came down hard
It hurt me more than it ever did you
The slipper came down hard
But that is what I had to do

You scream, you shout, you behave so badly
No one corrects you - and I have to be the one to do something, sadly
I sat up all night, lighting one cigarette after the next
Wondering if I was right, and put things into context

The slipper came down hard
It haunts me in my dreams
The slipper came down hard
It's something I will have to live with it seems

When I cam back home, you had forgotten all about it
In my mind it was still etched, nothing I do will erase it
Now, in reflection alone in my room I sit
In my soul, all I see is a bottomless pit !

October 1st
After giving Jaith a good spanking for bad behaviour

These feelings don't go away...

These feelings don’t go away

Through all the work, it makes me go stray

Fleeting moments in time, I can’t hold them at bay

I need you - with me I want you to stay

These feelings don’t go away

They invade my mind all through the day

Here I go again, in a daze I lay

Even in a meeting, attention I could not pay 

These feelings don’t go away

Try as hard as I may

To be with you is all I pray

To have you here, anything I’ll pay !

These feelings don’t go away...

Inspired by the song ‘Sideways’ by which I listened to over and over again yesterday, thinking of you...

September 11th, 2012, 

Riyadh, Saudi Arabia

When I said I missed you, I lied !

Snuggled in a duvet, I sit at the edge of my bedside

Through dimly lit lamps, I see outside

Outside, through the heat and the tarmac roads, serenity abide

When I said I missed you, I lied

I don’t miss you - I hopelessly long for you

Through all my work and pressures, I pine for you

To hear your voice, to see your face, my soul dies for you

To have one touch, one hug, one kiss, my heart aches for you

Just one more day - oh let it go fast

And then I will be with you again - at long last

Till then, be still my beating heart

See you soon my angel, from my thoughts you never did part !

11th September

Riyadh, Saudi Arabia...

Ammi...

You told me not to - but yet i did

You told me I was foolish - I was

You told me it will happen - and so it did

You told me it will hurt - yes, now I know 

You told me it was not worth it - it was

You told me it is not the answer - maybe

You told me it will not bring happiness - it hasn’t

You told me it will make me different - it didn’t

You told me to take it easy - I didn’t

You told me to be easy - I was defiant

You told me to be ok - I wasn’t

You told me it was enough - it wasn’t

You wanted me to speak out - I did

You wanted me to be principled - I am

You demanded my best - I gave more

You wanted my soul intact - it is

You wanted me to be my own man - I will always be

You wanted me to spend time with my family - I will

You wanted me to be good - I generally am

You wanted me to be like you - I probably never will

You wanted me to seek my own truths - I always have

You wanted me to beat my own path - Surely, I have

You wanted me to give - I gave

You told me to be wise - I don’t know how

You wanted me to read - I devoured 

You wanted me to explore - I discovered

You wanted me to love - I found passion

You wanted me to live - I will leave a legacy

September 11th 2012

Riyadh, Saudi Arabia

Lessons my parents taught me...

In victory, humility

In defeat, resolve

In happiness, thanks

In sorrow, perspective

In pain, strength

In pleasure, grace

At the bottom, hope

At the top, vision

In despair, inspiration

In jubilation, retrospection

In wealth, thrift

In poverty, determination

In loneliness, memories

With family and friends, time

In hunger, perseverance

In abundance, share

In folly, lessons

In wisdom, principles

In friendship, honesty

In enmity, honor

In diversity, understanding

In complexity, simplicity

In doubt, faith

In hopelessness, confidence

In youth, accomplishment

In old age, no regrets

In life, love

In death, a legacy

September 11th 2012 - Riyadh, Saudi Arabia

Me...

Try me, and you will find out

Test me, and you will fail

Challenge me, and you will be defeated

Defeat me, and you will be challenged

Lie to me, and I will never trust

Steal from me, and I will never give

Betray me, and I will walk away

Dishonor me, and you will be avenged

Respect me, and you will be respected

Cuss me, and I will always remember

Give me, and you will be repaid

Owe me, I will forget

Trust me, and you will have a friend (for life)

Be gentle with me, and you will receive kindness

Forgive me, and you will be loved 

Love me, and you will be cherished

September 11th 2012

Riyadh, Saudi Arabia

Duality

Greatness or peace of mind
Who you are - what you become - it this choice will define
And bring you the world as you want it
Or nothing at all if you don't achieve it

Greatness or piece of mind
What will you choose - to which will you bind
Make a decision either way - the other you will lose
For no matter what people say, at some point you will need to choose

Is greatness worth your piece of mind ?
Can you live all of life, if greatness you never find ?
Which is worth more - no one can really tell
If you want both - then in duality you will dwell

Greatness or piece of mind
I could never decide - in my mind the choices I grind
Greatness - something that I have always aspired for
Piece of mind - what parents and graparents have shown before

Make the call - I tell my self - over and over again
Either choice I make - I will never be the same
Maybe I achieve greatness first - and then consider piece of mind
For without achieving that - I know piece of mind I will never find !

Anger

It starts with a low growl, and develops into a bark
It creeps up without warning, and never misses its mark
The usually lovely person, now in contrast stark
It can be anything, and immediately it would spark

Try reasoning, or counting to a hundred
Try telling yourself you are getting there, you will hurt your kindred
Try avoiding, or simply trying to say you will not get there
But sure as hell, you will, and then all of Satan in his glory you will bare

Words that cut deep, phraces that hurt
Callously from your mouth you will happily blurt
Your eyes like fire, each senew each bone each muscle tense
Even to you, the transformation does not make sense !

Why does it grip you so wholly - why are you not in control
Each time it happens, you lose a part of your soul
Once it subsides, you take a look around you
And understand that it is far worse than you ever thought true

My biggest nemisis - my biggest enemy - my biggest woe
Anger - you I will conquor - and then, live in content forever more...